Sunday

Five days since my last post! I have been busy and consumed with living life, and little writing.

There have been moments of grief, and tears that are triggered by little reminders of my Mom. I am managing these times by allowing them to wash over me, and leave as quickly as they come. It's when I fight them that I find they linger.

I made a bold move yesterday, and over the past few days actually. I am not only changing my interior by selling more furniture; but also, my exterior by changing my hair colour, although a subtle difference. It has been several years since I have done this, and am uncertain that I like the result! The good news is that it is only hair, and in my case grows quickly.

I am seeking more excitement in my life, and have signed up for a zipline adventure with an outdoor club. Feeling the need to live life to the fullest is prompting me to take action to do so. I went on an urban hike Friday evening with some members from this club, and enjoyed the brisk walk through the park and along the waterfront, with a pub stop afterward to socialize. I was the oldest, yet one of the quickest members, on this outing! My self-confidence is boosted by this knowledge.

In hiking, I have found a way to move through my grief journey more serenely and actively. The powerful, 'alive' feeling that comes to me from a fast-paced hike is well worth the effort.

Today, after a late evening yesterday, celebrating an upcoming birthday with my youngest daughter, I was unable to rouse myself early enough to attend church. I miss the connection with others there, yet God I find is everywhere.