Tuesday

'Rainy days and Mondays', and now Tuesday is here, and not only rainy, but also windy and cold. Feels a lot like 'fall', in more ways than one.

More losses. The leaf-peeping trip is definitely not happening due to scheduling problems. Some disturbing news from a family member. An injury on my most recent hiking trip. For a few days my body and brain shut down and only tears would fall. I could sure use a call from my Mom; just to hear her voice would help to ground me. When I can't walk quickly on the earth, the waves of grief can and do reach me.

I just received a call, another loss, this time a first cousin who was my older brother's age. He and his family were very close to us when we were children growing up in the same city. He died Monday morning, his heart failed, he was young. Life is so fleeting and fragile. This very moment is all we have, and now I do not wish to spend this moment crying any longer.

Tomorrow will hopefully bring sunshine or perhaps a rainbow!