Friday

Here it is; a rainy, cold Friday leading into the long weekend, the day after my milestone birthday.

It was a wonderful week of celebrating my passage into a new decade of life. Family and friends gathered together to help me usher in the next phase of my growth.

Frankly, I feel no different, and I actually feel ageless most days. I know I am more fearless, and relish new opportunities to experience living as fully as possible.

Tomorrow I plan to hike with others in the woods near waterfalls, while negotiating uncertain terrain. My walking stick is a necessity this time.

My grief has been on hold for quite a few days now, as I have been preoccupied.

Today's rain triggers my own tears. I seem to cry with the sky. It is as if the heavens give me permission to let my tears fall, when the clouds open and release their own raindrops.

I feel a let down, after having been surrounded by family and friends consistently the past several days. Now I am alone again. I look forward to being with others tomorrow.