October 21st

As October draws near its' end, my grief seems to be stabilizing, although I still haven't read the sympathy cards. They lay there on my mother's desk, waiting to be put away.

It is almost like burying my Mom all over again, and part of me doesn't want to let go. I feel that I must force myself to read the words before I lay them to rest out of view, just as I needed to see her in the casket before her burial.

Perhaps it is OK for me to just be, and let this happen spontaneously when I am ready. A good life lesson, actually...