Between decades

In a few short days and nights, a new decade will dawn. The week leading into the new year is the time I take to reflect on the past year, and in this case, decade.

It was ten years ago, before the birth of the new millenium. that my marriage ended, even though it took another six years to finalize the divorce.

I have been living as a 'single', mostly alone, during that time. After spending more than half my life as part of a 'couple', I needed to learn how to be 'my independent self'; a separate, unique and whole individual.

I believe I have succeeded in the accomplishment of that task. I relish my independence now, yet hope for a life partner to share the best parts of myself.

Not just anyone will suffice. I have had much male interest, and a few 'courtship' proposals from good men, who would make wonderful husbands.

None of them were my counterpart. That knowledge prevented me from making, what I believe would have been, a mistake.

I would rather live my life alone than settle for less than 'the last love of my life', my soul mate.