Life is Unfair

It's happening again, another loss. This one is not directly mine, yet my being is filled with sadness.

My grief memories and feelings are triggered. These waves are relentless.

I did have the privilege of meeting this wonderful, loving, courageous young soul and his family, in January, at the engagement party I mentioned in an earlier post.

He lived and fought for his life for some years with a brain tumor, and he valiantly tried to not leave his lovely young family too soon.

Life is so unfair, especially when our youth are taken in their prime. That saying, 'only the good die young', certainly applies to this individual.

I need to cleanse my soul today, so that I can be strong tomorrow for my own daughters, and the special friend and her family-to-be, who have lost their son, brother, husband and father.

I have chosen to rent a vehicle and drive the few hours on a day which promises to be another sunny and even warmer one. That will give me time to settle my grief and focus before I arrive at the funeral.

Then I can be alone with my thoughts on the way home afterward. If I plan my strategy to cope, hopefully I can carry it to fruition.

This is another time when my own soul mate, would he were with me, could envelop me in the safe comfort of his own being.

Sunday, I will relish the opportunity to ferry across the lake and hike the Toronto Islands, in order to shake these waves of grief from me.

If I just keep moving . . . .